Nathan Foster Aka Bowzer

hay nay just wanna say i hope your smiling down on every one and by the grace of God justice will get done for you very soon, i know you didnt wanna go and leave every one thats whats so sad. Every one misses you dearly. when i think of you its always in a good way. im happy God gave me that one chance of spending some time with you the day before after you shan and joe got your VW signs lol!!! and your jam tarts/penguins---you made sure you had more than joe---you hungry belly.. lololol..your spot looks sick now work was put into that i no you was impressed-its the hardest out--trust---whats the shorts saying (priv8 joke) lol i still got your pink and purple boxers form like 6years ago lol shan always used to say gimme ma bruthas boxers bak lol and i used to say nah there comfortable i kno im embarrasing you cos cum on they are fruity--lol.. im tryna b optimistic but you no its hard and every days just passing i hope God can guide your mum,dad,bros,sistas,roche, son n every one else...rest in peace hun love you loads family ---x---x---x---x---x-x-x-x-x-x

Nina April 15, 2008

Hi Nay jus passin tru, i woz reading wot nina has written and im bussin up lol u were funny man.
I havent seen ur boi 4 long i hardly c any1 diz days but one thing i do knw is i miss u gna holler later.
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Simone Bell (Sister) April 15, 2008

Hi nay i jus cnt stop cryin and thinkin about u 2day its da 13th i jus think dats unlucky, u have been gone 8 mths 2day, i spoke 2 mum 2day and i feel her pain getting severe she misses u a lot, so do i, i cnt even c da screen or the keyboard coz im cryin 2 much, im gna go coz im too upset.
LOVE U NAYNAE xxxxxxxxxxx

Simone Bell (Sister) April 13, 2008

KING BOWSA

Thinkin bout u frm mornin so i decide 2 say a quick hi yh goin wrk soon, boi i jus dnt even knw Y cnt b asked wid da questionin, all i knw is ur Gone but one thing i do knw is ur neva gona b 4gotten.
Nae i love u and u knw diz pleaze keep looking afta every1 in heaven 4 me.
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Simone Bell (Sister) April 10, 2008

im laughin coz i knw how cheeky you are

Hi NayNae its me again i hvent been feelin very well lately bit dwn, i am on da fne to mum she is tellin me about da world frm da paper its just gttin WORSE, shyheim cme up 2 c me had is lunch and woz rampin in ma livin room, once again u knw wot im gna say miss u neva gna c u again unless da pearly gates open up 4 me which i knw i need 2 improve my way of life 4 dat.
Nay i keep thinking im gna c u wlk thru my door, or buzz ma buzzer well i knw ur fine keep wtchin ova us all.
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Simone Bell (Sister) April 9, 2008

TYME SURE IS MOVIN

Hi Nay how r yah, boi u knw i still cnt begin to believe u r gone and its funny car every tyme i hear dat tune fish go deep it reminds me of u.
I look at ur pics all da tyme da world hasnt changed its jus got worse glad your out of it all, well u knw wot i mean coz diz world i reckon its ova very very soon.
I havent been up to ur grave at all my Grandad is in dat cementary so i can hop in with ma Dad and come v u.
I am still very angry and i jus hope 4 da best xxxxxxxxxxxx
Dun knw miss u

Simone Bell (Sister) April 8, 2008

LOST A SOUL GAINED AN ANGEL

To Nay,
Just sitting at home thinking bout you bro, banging the funky you got me hooked pn. Fam, u were 1 of the first niggas who introduced me 2 da funky/neesh. Member when I first heard it, i was like you shud low it...

Me, mum, Heemig and Shy came to see you today, your grave is looking over pretty! Thanks 2 mwah.. Nah im playing I didnt put no work in but your real niggas did and I love them for it.

Nay I cant believe or understand still why your not here with me bro. I miss you so much and still cant bear to talk about you too much to people. I sit and think bout you and it just breaks my heart to think Raheem will never get to meet his daddy who he always asks for. He's changed your title he calls you * uncle naynae* cos he always hears Shy Shy pointing 2 pictures or laying in your bed...

You ask Shy wheres uncles Naynae and he says in Heaven!!
Tell me hes not on dis ting!

Bless his heart..

Nay or as I would call you greazily your a true blessing to me and I miss you soo much, everything seems to remind me of you. How I stay strong I still dont no myself. I think having real friends help. My gals, my tru girls however sour they get me have made me who I am.
I love them all for it 2..
Shout out Keals, Miriam, Adie and Nina

Then theres your first lady, Lady Bowser again a true blessing! Where would I be and how would I have coped without Roch, I truly dont no. She gave me the most energy to deal with what happened to you..
And i love her for it x

Anyways b im out so take care and ill see you soon

Shin x

Shannel (Sister) April 7, 2008

Still cnt Believe ur gone

Hi Bows Mum cme up da other day wid shin i suppose all we eva do is talk bout u every wakin day, i dnt even knw woy 2 say coz i jus wish i cud ring u and see how ur doing? boi it seems as if i cnt sleep diz dayz its tough knwin dat u r no longer on diz earth, well wot can i say ur birthday is gna b da hardest tyme of our lives diz year plus wen diz all happened 2 u.
i smetimes 4get dat i can,t tlk to u like da other day i said let me ring bowsa den i remembered i cnt.
U still haven,t visited me but i knw ur restin and ur safe but i still will and r missing u love u Big sis xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Simone Bell (Sister) March 26, 2008

from what kealz and shan said....

Nay, as the days go by I sit and wonder why u had to be taken from us....
Its hard to descibe how I feel. Im so confused. You not beng here confuses me. I still cant believe your not here.. doesnt feel right, its like one big dream.
Day by Day I sit and try to convince myself that it'll all be okay, it will get easier but to me it doesnt seem like its ever gonna happen.
Sometimes at night i will cry myself to sleep, (the events of what happened the night u left us replayin in my head, over and over) the thought of you not being here makes me feel so angry... sometimes i think whats the point in carrying on.
Everyone tries to keep a smile on their face, its not real. We're all hiding our anger and upset behind our smiles, without tellin each other how we feel becoz we think the other person is okay.

WHAT BURNS THE MOST....
Raheem hasnt got you here. when i look at Raheem, our young innocent child, it burns me nay, the fact that he hasnt got you here, he must be sooo confused as to where uve gone. He sees the pictures but he doesnt see you. Im dreadin when he's older, Im goin to hav to be the one to tell him where his daddy is.
When I see your mum, i really dont know what to say, we're all goin thru it, but wat ur mum is goin thru is different. I listen to mum but the words automatically dont come out of my mouth. What can u say to a mother who has lost her child...? She misses you soo much Nay and it burns me to see that.
I dont really go Somerleyton anymore.... I cant seem to pick myself up and go.... it feels so wierd u not being there... i expect to see u riding ur bike or jammin wiv da man dem.
As kealz said Shan is doing well, because of u we've become closer, she my sista no matter what u wana say (lol) and i dont want that to change... keep watchin over her and guide her in the right direction... I ve become closer with ur cousins (my girlies) aswell, kealz, adie, gynell, jade and aaron. They all lookin after me and Raheem, dont watch nufin.
Anyway jus so you know NO MATTER WHAT YOU'RE ALWAYS GONNA BE MY NUMBA ONE.... MY ONE INA MILLION....

LOVE YOU NATHAN.... miss you...ROCH XXXXXXXX
its bout u all day every day ..mwah..

R (ride or die wife) March 21, 2008

Carrying on what Keals just said .....

Life and the people in it all seem different now your not here. Until you lose someone so close to you, nobody understands.

Everyone smiles and carries on with life Nay, whilst where just sort of stuck in a time war, unable to move on.

The saying goes you dont know what you have got until its gone, how tru is that.. Daily i wish for one more conversation with you which would be that you can have all the things you wanted but I never gave you!! Lol

Or Id tell you how much I love you and how proud I still am of you.. So many memories which will never fade but still I have a large cloud over my head which prevents me from going forward, something you would of wanted me to do.

Everyone asks me how do I stay so strong and why am I always smiling!! My answer is ......... (nothing)
Nay, I dont no how I do it, I guess Im ah good actresss. You did always call me a drama queen and said I belonged on a stage! I smile whilst underneath it feels like my heart has been torn out and put on a hot stove then place back into my heart.

The burning pain I feel daily and the longing ache which runs through my heart is deadly... but still i contiune to smile.
I sit and ask myslef why!!

They say the god die young, how true is that.. Your 1 special angel bro and im ceratin that though it wasnt your time to leave us, your still here in the flesh and spirit..
Im always saying Rahemm scares me... He just stares, thats you you no!!

Nay or as I would call you greazily continue to shine on us and even though its hard continue to gives us the peace we need. I know your chilling with Cherrelle, Nanny, Uncle Errol and Grandad eatting beearr food loll

As god is my witness theres not a day that doesnt go bye when your not in my thoughts.. Your a candle that continues to shine and never wants to go out... I feel lost and empty without you here but you have left my some true friends Nay and I love you for that.. If it wasnt for you I wouldnt have tru friends lyk what I got now. The main one being Keighley- ride or die and I love you 4 dat!!!

Then theres your first lady, Lady Bowser, a true blessing to have in my life. Sometimes I just sit and think bout her and I pray god rewards her. So strong, dedicated and loyal what did she do to deserve losing half of her life at the tender age of 19?
As I always say she dosent know what shes worth!! Shes a diamond bro and you no dis, however sour she occassionally got you!

I sit and think of the pain this person has caused us all and still 7 months later I dont know the answer. Sadly I watch mum slip into depresssion whilst moaning for you and trying her best to be strong..

ALL THIS FOR WHAT????????????

One day I pray we all get the answers we need, not to put you at rest but so I can move forward and build a life for myself.. Its a message ive chossen to share with you and however visits your site for many reasons.... Agaon as I always say--- Just cos you see me smiling, dont get it twisted Im heartbroken with you here.

Tomorrow is our nieces 14th Birthday without you here Nay but in the spirit!! Weve recruited a neew bodyguard for the party lol, and imah promise you immah eat bear chicken!!!

Anyways bro im gone now, stay blessed and continue to walk with me n da fam!

See you soon Shan x

Shannel (Sister) March 21, 2008